HOLY CRAP, LAW. WHY? WHAT HAVE I DONE TO YOU? I'M SO SORRY WHATEVER I DID, BUT PLEASE, STOP DOING THIS TO MEEEE
It's 9:04 pm. let see how much time i procrastinate doing this.
I'm on a 'break'. i need something to break on. i tried youtube, but my head just slips into a half coma and i forget what i'm watching, playing games will just result in time travel and i'll somehow end up turning off my ps3 at 4am 32 years from now. Facebook sucks my soul, i refuse to let tumblr suck my soul, 9gag already sucked my soul, and the only thing the vampires form Twilight are gonna suck starts with a 'd' and ends with 'ick' (answer at bottom of page). For the love of god my head is so numb from reading black text on a white background. Can the professor at LEAST add some colours here and there? maybe a picture or two? Maybe like rainbowdash on page 35 to add some colour to this otherwise monotonous subject, or maybe even a picture of Mila Kunis on page 65 right in the middle of the page with a speech bubble that says: "YOU CAN DO IT, CHRIS! I BELIEVE IN YOU. HERE'S MY NUMBER, CALL ME" Pretty please? ....no? ....pleeeeassseee?? Oh alright, that's fine. I prefer Jennifer Aniston anyways (can you put HER on page 65? i mean you don't HAVE to, but...you know...it'll be nice!)
I totally forgot what was talking about. It's 9:16, so i officially wasted 12 minutes *high fives self* I probably looked like a seal going ARF ARF ARF just now. I have no motivation to do anything. I can't even find motivation to learn something new on le guitarra. Is that guitar in spanish? i'll pretend it is. Ever since i found out how little i actually learn at Brandon's house (or as Micca would call him, Brandy, urhur), i've felt sooooo lost. I dunno why i even thought i was remotely good at guitar. Well, true it hasn't been one year, but the fact of not having a proper practicing schedule and not having a proper instructor is taking a toll on me. The days of learning random crap 'cause its fun is over, and now i'm realizing how important music theory is if i want to go beyond basic song covers and move on to more complicated stuff. I guess it's good to feel like this, but eh, SAD DAYS I SUCK. After my 4 midterms are over (OH SHIT, I GOTTA STUDY FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUCK) i need to find something to work on. maybeh maor scales, maybeh not.
And then holy shit, i'm starting to feel the minor affects of lent. it's not bad, with only a few moments of "nnnnnnngh oh god whhhhy" but i'm doing better than last year. The secret is not to look at Anis- i mean the secret is self-control (actually i think the secret is not to look at Joa- I MEAN IT'S DEFINITELY SELF-CONTROL). If i make it, i win for life. I don't care how mundane this achievement is, but i'll master the art of self-control and it'll be helpful one day. I HOPE SO AT LEAST. I DON'T WANT TO THINK ABOUT HOW I'LL BE IN 2 WEEKS.
It is now 9:27. i'll stop at 9:30. 3 more minutes to ramble! OH I KNOW! great i gotta find these now, hold on...
I FOUND IT. QUICKFIRE ANSWERING THESE LONG OVERDUE QUESTIONS TIIIIIIME. Dont remember where i left off, so i'll do #'s 8 to 12.
8.If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? DUDE, DON'T BE A DICKFACE DOUCHBAG SMOKING DRUNK RUDE THANGS ASSWHORE OVER-CONFIDENT TEEN. AND DON'T HAVE WHATEVER PROBLEMS VANIA HAS. SERIOUSLY, IT GETS ON PEOPLE'S NERVE. BUT YEAH, BE SMART AND NERDY BUT SOCIABLE AND COOL. BITCHES LOVE NERDS. ALL THE BITCHES, BOTH GUYS AND GIRLS. KAY? KKKKK? KKKKKKKKKK? KK.
9.Would you break the law to save a loved one? YES
10.What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back? ...SKYDIVING? AND DUNNO, I'M STILL IN SCHOOL, BRO.
11.Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? I REALLY NEED TO LET GO OF...*PUTS ON SUNGALSSES*... MAH PENIS. AWWWWWW YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. SRS ANSWER: DUNNO, DOES NOT APPLY.
12.Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? WORRIED GENIUS, 'CAUSE DERP HEADS DERP AROUND TOO MUCH AND THEY CAN'T MAKE THE MONEEEEEY.
oh crap it's 9:40. oops.
Answer to what the vampires of Twilight could suck that starts with D and ends with ICK: Dancing baby chick (while listening to Mr. Taxi or twinkle twinkle. HAJIMA HAJIMA MA MA OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT K GOTTA GO STUDY OR SOMETHING KBAI)
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Thursday, December 22, 2011
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Tuesday, June 28, 2011
WOOPIE!
oh god this is so rushed...
I think brandon patrick, with a greasy baconators in his hands, and saaaause dripping down his mouth: "oh god, it doesn't feel like we graduated!"
YA I KNOW. It feels like the next day i'm going to once again wake up at around 6:45 am, take a shower at 7:00am 'cause i roll around on my parents bed for 15 minutes being a lazy bum, then arrive at school at the active time of 7:30, where i sit alone at the corner waiting for people to show up. I'm just so used to it now! You never really know how much you'll miss a daily routine when you suddenly just stop it.
But allow me tell my life story.
of the last 4 years.
once upon a time....
i entered grade 9 SO SECLUDED. LIKE HOLY CRAP. HONESTLY, i hated talking to strangers. I mostly had to blame it to body-image issues, but heh, i must also blame it on the fact i never really hung out with anybody. And when i was asked to, i usually gave an excuse not to. I remember the 2nd day of grade 9, where i still haven't found my lunch friends yet who i was to hang out with, and was eating fries in the hallways alone like a loser. Then these 2 grade 12's walked past, asking if they had smokes on them, where the other one replied "no man. gotta be quiet, there's some niners here who'll overhear" where they proceeded to rofl while they walked past. I realized 2 things there.
1)IM SO INSIGNIFICANT, OH GOD.
2) I was in a place where i potentially have direct contact with drugs. not that smoking is, but yeah.
Basically, I was friggen scared of what was to come. Aother random memory of grade 9 was at the 3rd(?) day of science class. I sat beside cassandra barbosa, who i never met before in my life. And not only that, she was a girl. Double weakness. So she asks: "oh, do you know how to do this question?" which i replied in all my charm: "No....you should ask the teacher" with my eyes avoiding hers and my face hiding under. Reflecting back, i had a really craptacular social life. I mean sure, i was nice and such, but it was up to the other person to get to know me better.
I remember actually walking into the atrium, and having one word flash in my head in big, bright, bubble letters: PEOPLE.
and yup, there was a arseload of people. hoooly crap. The atrium was full of people i never met, it was actually sort of frightening. Then again, i also thought of how if one were to chuck a grenade down there, it'll be one hell of a multi-kill.
ANYWAYS
grade 9 was okay. The only highlighted moments was
1) meeting brandon y again
2) talking to people i never talked to before in elementary but talked to in grade 9 and
3) meeting new people! LIKE SCOTT BEAR <3<3<3<3
I must say, it definitely helped me get more social!
I actually wrote down some grade 10 stuff on this blog, i almost forgot. thanks to somebody's influence, it took spanish, which freaked half my family out when i told them! It was MUCHO fun though, eh? eh? I definitely broke out of my anti-social shell with the help of my friends and such, especially with the help of one person in paaaarticular. I remember i had 3 classes with her one semester, which was honestly really fun! especially science. Or as mark would say...
SCIIIIENCE!
Grade 11 was sho fun! I don't think i'll ever forget whatever happened, so i'll save my rambling =]
I just know that it was a start of many fun things in my life. THE TIME WHERE I LEARNED TO LET LOOSE, MOTHER F-
and grade 12! Debut, wondergrad, prom, grad. Without a doubt a fun year! ^^
Debut: Hoenstly, those long hours at night every weeek practicing the same thing over and over again, the constant mistakes, the confusion, Gord, the tireness, Gord, cooperating and taking the lead, Gord, and saying how glad i'll be when it's all over. And Gord.
But i do miss them. It was really fun to dance, 'cause it was like....dipping fries in ice cream. A completely new, and rather tasty experience. Thanks michaela for inviting me!
Wondergrad: It's been over 10 years since i went to wonderland! I did not expect to hangout with such a big group too, haha. It was mucho burrito fun. BEHEMOTH, YAAA.
Prom: I unced. Hard. And got drunk...sorta. And puked. And i was sore after. I honestly could not ask for more <33 Vania was a good date too! though being her, it was still funny to see her all prettied up and dancing and such ^^ she was still mean to me as ever though! I shall miss heeer, sad face
Grad: It was long. And hot. And i didn't cry. It was rather unsentimental, really haha. I would be sad...IF MOST OF MY FRIENDS WERENT GOING TO RYERSON/TORONTO. oh geez.
All i can say is, without my friends, it wouldn't have been as great.
And i mean each and every one of them!
Mah bros were always there in school to keep me entertained, and those occasional hangouts with them were so much fun! So different from before, since i used to neeeeeeever go out. I think you could tell the difference from my dropping AR school after each year xD AR could only be done when i had no life, so i'll say it's a fair enough trade off.
Can't forget the girls in my life! It's really odd being the one in the family who talks to girls more than their siblings. I mean, by brother's practically 25 or so, and i dont think he talks to a girl. outside of family. I'm dead serious. There's 1 girl who changed how i am the most! But i shall not go in detail about hime-samaaa, 'cause it would take HOLY CRAAAAP SO LONG and i'm about to leave for vegas, hehe. Like seriously, i wonder how long this post would be if i just wrote about her. Who knows!
Anyways, i'll be seeing most of my close friends in RyHigh! I hope i'll make new friends, there, since my new goal is to extend my grasp, while staying close with my current ones on the other side of campus. If i distance from them, well....NO, SCREW THAT, I WON'T LET IT HAPPEN, HARUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMPH. It's scarily exciting!
I also realized i never liked anybody for 4 years. I dont really mind being friends with girls instead, despite everybody's criticisms for it, but meh. I'll just go with the flow (mah hand is a dolphin!), and whatever happens, happens.
I'm in no rush.
Well then, IT WAS A BLAST, HIGH SCHOOL. THANKS FOR BEING SO AWESOME AND SCARY AND STRESSFUL! AND THANKS FOR CHANGING ME. I think my old self would be proud of me.
Though that could just be my ego talking 8D
WOOOOOSH, OFF TO VEGAS!
ps: can't wait to jog and do other bodily killing stuff with brandon. having a buddy to do it is so much more motivating, haha.
SAUGA CITY G'Z
i larfed
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Saturday, June 18, 2011
Maybe Daily #13 (HOW UNLUCKY)
HOLY MOTHER OF GODDAMMED SHIT MOTHER GODDAMMIT ARGFROGGIN MOTHER'S DIARRHEA DAD'S ARMPIT HAIR'D LLIP BALMING BACK STABBIN BITCHEN KITCHEN GRANDMA'S PUBES EFFIN SON OF A PRAYING MANTIS SHIT HOLES.
WHY
THE
HELL
DID
I
GO
TO
SLEEP
SO
EARLY?
WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY
I DONT EVEN REMEMBER ME GOING TO SLEEP. IM HONESTLY TRYING TO REMEMBER WHEN, BUT I DON'T.
THIS IS LIKE THE HANGOVER PART 3 BUT I WASN'T DRUNK AND INSTEAD OF HAVING FUN ADVENTURES, I'M HERE IN MY ROOM NAKED WITH SOME GIRL IN MY BED.
I am normal. I am not sad. It's not even the last day of school! I'll save all my bawling and QQing for grad. Okay, so i didn't have any PATH kids to say bye
to, i didn't have some special class room that i can no longer visit after today, so i guess i don't really have a reason to be as sad as others.
...
Oh my gosh...
The corner...!
...No wait i'll still be using corner for exams. NVM, NO MOURNING YET.
Day 13
13. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
LOL, wanting myself as a friend? xD
Well of course! I'm charming, caring, witty, strong, handsom
e, atheletic, kind, funny, smart, awesome, legendary, funtastic, smarticle, bi-winning, chinese, girly, and ABOVE ALL....gorgeous.
Eww, why would i wanna have a friend that's just like me? >.>
Pic to sum up day:
OOOOMG, SLEPT SO EARLY, WHAT A WASTED FRIDAY
PS: I think i'm not as sad-days as some people 'cause most of my friends are either going to ryerson or UofT. All except Robert. Which i can live with.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE? HOLY CRAAAAAAP.
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Tuesday, June 14, 2011
STORY OF TRUTH.
Haha i was re-reading this, and i just had to imprint this forever and ever on the internet!
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Sunday, June 12, 2011
Maybe Daily #iforgotagain
Dear Future Chris,
I just realized i should have made a birthday post. But i guess i was having too much fun to do so.
or i was lazy.
Yeah, that sounds about right =]
So...yeah! you're (i'm) 18 now! I should buy a lottery ticket to celebrate, but apparently only old people win, so i'll wait until i'm old and wrinkly before i do it.
the rose is also doing quite swell, though i do see some brown on the edge of its delicate, luxurious, pristine petals. Oh lordy please dont die Dx
Since white represents innocence, i guess once it di
es, my innocence is then gone too. THE TRAGEDY, OH MAN.
So yeah, my birthday was fun! it was more eventful than my usual birthdays at least. i remember the most eventful thing of my 17th birthday was the fact that melissa hugged me, which was the first she she ever did it! So i'm happy.
Still dont know why vania was mad at me though ha
ha. Maybe its because i didnt answer her back for 2 hours 'cause i forgot to check my phone, or maybe its cause my answer wasn't as intelligent as she thought it would be. But what else can i reply to "TELL ME WHAT YOU'RE FEELING, NAOW" Oh vania, sometimes i dont understand you, but i still have to urge to cuddle you sometimes, just because you hate it!
i also bought my corsage, but i dunno if it'll match her dress. HOPEFULLY, 'cause it does not have blue or purple like she wanted! just red. and orange. which is close enough to red >.> Oh and i forgot to see if my tie matches too.
but i should stop worrying so much for now.
i'm also really honestly stuck at what to learn next for guitar. i want to learn barre chords, but it's just so frustrating. Songs are hard too, since it's either really easy, or really hard. Plus, most songs i dont even know, and the ones that i do are on expert mode -.-
I NEED GUIDANCE PLEASE.
What, get a teacher?
LOL WHO NEEDS ONE.
=.=
Day 12
12. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Can't i fusion-hah and become a joyful genius?
or become a nurse joy and avoid it altogether?
But if i had to choose, joyful simpleton. I honestly rather have fun, live a simple life and such and such, instead of being SUPER, uber smart. I'll let the asians do that.
oh wait...
Pic to sum up day:
l.o.l
ps: DANCING. IS. SO. FREAKING. TIRING. GOD FUUUUING.
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Tuesday, June 7, 2011
im angry i cannot find a gif i need to make a (un) funny joke.
therefore, i shall hold off posting what i wanted to till later.
as a something else, IM GONNA LEARN HARE HARE YUKAI, AND IM GONNA DANCE.
DANCE MOTHERFUCKER, DANCE.
IN DA SCHOOL.
IN DA CAFF.
IN THE STREETS.
IN DA HOOD.
IN DA....VAGINA.
IN DA EVERYWHERE.
then i shall be labeled as "swag" and i will swag up the world with my excess swag that i'll be sweating.
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Thursday, June 2, 2011
Maybe Daily #11
i think...
Dear Future C- *YAAAAWN*,
oh sorry, i'm just so tired form excessive napping. i thi
nk i'll just sleep right now since i slept late and woke
up early.
Oh god i got bed hair.
So apparantly, i may have a minor case of slight sunburn on my face. That for it just enjoys being red from overexposure of sun. See, this is why i don't go outside -.- IT HURTS MY BEAUTIFUL FACE, OH LORDY.Oh well, it was worth it just to skip class. I was a major help in the ball hockey tourney anyways. For god's sake, i spent 4 dollars on freezes, i mean C'MON i was their best customer Dx
I forgot what i was gonna say next...my mind's like imploding right now.
Anyways, i guess i should go study for calc by sleepin
g or something! i wonder if you cans till drop out of courses, 'cause i swear dillon just did a few days ago. But then i'll be ditching vania...
OR, i can drop out, and for my spare, visit the calc classto keep her company!MA, MA, I'M A GENIUS!I should really get on talking to my guidan
ce counsellor, it's been like 2 weeks since i said i would.
But yup, since calculus no longer matters (which is ironic since i spent so much money on extra calc clases on saturday), i'm just gonna most likely read over my notes in the morning, and wing it. Life's good when you no longer have to try for a class you hate!
Wooooo, PARTYING PARTYING YAAAAAAAAA
Damn, where's that gif of that awkward girl dancing from that friday video :(
day 11
11. Are you holding onto something you need to let
go of?
...what the sexual connotation?
but uhm, i don't think so. Other than my p-
NO, BAD CHRIS.
Yeah, nothing really stand out. Neither a person, obje
ct or uhm...anything else stand out in my mind that fit that. Other than my p-
NO, BAD.
>.>
Pic to sum up day:
Terri's kitten. PLOTTING MY PLAN TO STEAL IT
PS: brandon and i joined a SC2 tourney. If we get casted by husky and/or day9, im gonna laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarf so hard hahah
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TESTING.
Looks like gifs work!
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Monday, May 30, 2011
Maybe Daily Diez (Spanish, sexy-mexi, ay yai yai)
Dear Future Chris,
2 notable things today:
1) I read my Osama the wizard story to the class. It was going SWELL at the serious parts, but once i reached the part wher ei introduced him as a wizard, i larfed. i larfed SO hard, i nearly died. I started larfing so hard at once points i was nearly about to just stop it right there and end it from how retarded this all sounded. So i did the only logical ting and said "this is retarded".
SELLING MOVIE RIGHTS TO THIS!
2) i learned Clocks by Coldplay! I like this song 'cause it has a smex intro. It was pretty easy to learn, who would've thought? I just played this alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll day. It's tune makes my pee pee go DOING DOING DOING.
Also beasted my english essay, which i think is the worst essay i wrote evar. But i always say that and i always end up getting like 85-90. GUESS THAT'S HOW SMART I AM, MUHAHA ;]
Day 10
10. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
uhm, talk to more people i never talked to before and therefore meet new people. OR talking to them first. Only thing holding me back is my constant fear that i won't know what to say after the initial "HI" or have nothing to talk about and thus be llamas all day eeryday. But that can be easily fixed, just gotta take the lead!
I AM CHRIS-EXCLAIMATION MARK YOGNAUGHT, AND I HAVE THE BALLS!
Pic to sum up day:
More like video!
Oh geebus, i didn't realize it's played with two guitars.
i don't know why this fact surprises me so o.O
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Saturday, May 28, 2011
Maybe daily...I'll check later.
Dear Future chris,
I'm still dizzy from wondergrad D; And tired, had to wake up early 'cause of math and then had to go to james' first birthday party. There were three babies there, so cute =]
Though i should've shaved, dunno why i look at myself in such detail, but i looked like i just woke up from the streets as a hobo.
OH WELL.
I remember i read about this guy who has permanent vertigo from falling of a 7-foot building and surviving, and i remember thinking to myself "how the fuu is that possible?"
After behemoth, i now know. After I came home yesterday and browsing my version of television, i was honestly leaning forward like the world was tilting. Holy freaking heeeellll, gurl, SO TERRIFYINGLY TERRIBLE. I just fell asleep in my tilted world, and had very tilted dreams about...something. I only remember being on the behemoth again, but it was crusty and slow and i had no fun. And it was tilted.
day 9. let's just pretend it is.
9. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Pffftyeah
SCREW THE RULES, I HAVE MONEY.
oh and uhm, i was procrastinating on thrusday on english, so i recorded myself. Why did i do this? To laugh at myself when i'm old and sagging!
SO BAD.
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Sunday, May 15, 2011
Maybe Daily # 8
Dear Future Chris,
So it's 12:13 am and my philo demand essay is
tomorrow. and i have not even started my research.
However, i don't care.
SO BAD.
Well i know what my topic is since i did it for english already, but....uhm...JESUS CHRIST, CHRIS GET IT TOGETHER!
I blame Coldplay, been practicing The Scientist on my guitar for most of my work time, lol. Hopefully one day i can sing it too, but i don't want to sound like kermit the frog when i sing, so i'll save that for later.
Uhm...This week's really busy, but for some reason i'm not scared about anything. Maybe that mean's im a supa genius and i know everything?
YAH SEASHORE.
And the fact that no other universities accepted me yet (not even york. I CAN HOLD A FORK, GODDAMMIT) means i'm accepting my fate and going to Ryerson. I don't mind really, but i know my WHOLE family, save for my 1 cousin who already goes there, will spaz at me. GOTTA MAN UP AND TAKE IT LIKE A BHOSSS.
And yesterday and the day before that was a pretty hard time. Not for me, but for other people, especially for my guy friend, who claimed that he would've killed himself yesterday if it wasn't for this girl. Dammit, stop scaring me so much >.> I hate seeing you like this, and you going f10/S isn't gonna make this any better. Man, that was a forced starcraft reference.
And i also went to the library today with Cathy. She's so bad a
t making magazine covers, just let me do it, pleeease ._.
OMG THE SIDE OF MY NOSE IS BLEEDING.
Day 8
8. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Pic to sum up my day:
OM NOM. I just found it cute =]
PS:
GOOD.
PPS: USE REST! lool i imagine a snorlax. So pudgy!
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Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Honestly...
I don't like you. From what i've heard, you think i do, no?
I could see why you would think so, but the truth of the matter is that i never did since a loooooooooooong time ago. Not even once since then.
Not even a flicker.
Nope.
Nothing at all.
I always just thought of us as friends, and no matter what people said to me or asked me, i always denied everything.
Maybe i/we did overdo it a bit, but i'm not sure what made you think i liked you.
Just recently i've been trying to adapt to this sudden change...this...distancing, so i'm not myself. It's like the first week of quitting an addiction. The constant feeling of "DAMMIT, THIS FEELS TERRIBLE, MOTHER FUCKER, MOOO". I only acted clingy because you were a good friend, and i hate it when good friends just go bye. Was it too much? Probably, but half the time was just for fun when you insisted you were gonna go away to some next place next year for uni. Hehe.
Whatever i did to make you think this, it was probably me repressing how i am usually am with you. So what's left is just...half-mentally beaten me. With all the damage done to myself due to confusion.
Buuut, oh well. We're both going through tough times in school and other areas in our life, so it's expected.
Oh, and as a side note, i should try to put effort into talking to people first still. But it's hard D: Especially at times like this. unless it's about games or tips on learning guitar, lol. My life is just so mundane (at least hur) for me to talk about with people.
Por example:
Person 1: How was you day?
Me:Good. I just read my english book all day and did some CPTs. You?
Person 1: I went sky diving while fighting a dragon with a lightsaber. nbd.
Me: ...what what the fuck fuck?
PS: If only i never ignored your text, and i never told people that i was gonna ask you to prom would this never have happened between us. But by the time i remembered you texted me, it was the next day, and when i said my routine "good morning" you told me i didn't have to do that anymore. I don't think telling her i forgot about her text until now would have fixed anything...eh. Also just created such an awkward atmosphere for me when i decided that i wasn't going to ask you anymore but everybody expected me to. Or when you thought i was giving you a repressing stare, when i wans't. but the damage was done, sighduck. Now i can't even have the chance to wave hi before you look away from me.
I wonder if i can fix it one day. hm.
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Saturday, May 7, 2011
Maybe Daily #7
Dear Future Chris,
Im not sure why, but i feel down.
Actually i do know why.
But i'm too insecure to admit it.
Ah well, moping all the time won't make me feel better. It'll just make me feel woooorse.
And dammit, stop talking about ana to me! But you're drunk, so i understand.
Oh wait, i don't.
So drinking all the time too, bro. Especially if your excuse is being bored.
Day 7 of challenge
7.Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
UHM. WHAT IS THIS, A PARADOX?
LOL OH GEEEEEBUS.
So...if i do things right, it might be wrong to do them, yet, if i do the right things, i might do them wrongly.
UHM.
K.
SO. UHM.
I guess it'll be....doing things right.
'cause if i do it right, even if thy're wrong, i will do it right. Some things i do right will also be the right things to do ad even if i do do the wrong things, i do them rightly, so im basically a perfect being, capable of doing anything and everything rightly, like flying a gundam into space and fighting other gundams.
Sounds fun i suppose.
My brain imploded just now >-<
Pic to sum up day:
Yes, please.
PS: I beat portal 2, and i had a fun time looking up easter eggs and the lore behind the game. SUCH A GOOD ENDING, OMG. SUCH A GOOOOD GAME TOO.
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11:43 PM
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Maybe Daily #6
Dear Future Chris,
Yeah, this is totally not gonna be daily. im too not used to doing it still, despite me thinking of stuff to post throughout the day sometimes. Ahh, oh well.
So...yeah, jon's being friendly with me. Every since he told me about his chere problems, he's been talking to me a lot on msn. i guess he would in school too, but i don't see him, so oh well! Yeaah, giving people advice on these stuff sure is weird. I never experienced any of this to their full extent, and yet...i still do my best with my own l
imited observational/analytical ability to do my best. Half my things i say are just asumptions too, sooooo bad. I hate assuming things, but what else can i do?
ex 1:
"ooh yeeah, btw, like uhm...that's a terrible idea, she won't like it"
vs
ex 2:
"Oh well i think she'll like it, but it sounds risky. she seems like the one to like that kinda stuff, i dunno though."
YEAH, THEY BOTH SOUND BAD, BUT I STILL DO THE 2ND ONE MORE, OH MAH GOD.
But oh well, it seems to help times, so i'm glad.
It's also the 2nd time i've been called a therapist.
..oh my god, not even close. i'll accept it though :3
I just hope what i say helps or changes something, even if its something small. so i can make a postive impact on their lives.
That's what i wish for.
also, rob...GOOD LUCK.
day 6 of challenge
6.To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
For the time being, mostly all of it. The things i do now are my choice, like the decision to do the debut. i said yes months before i even asked my parents if i could do it. I was gonna do it anyways. Even my university choices, everybody tells me not to go to ryerson, but bitch, i'm not prejudice against schools like you are, and i'll go there and love it. That and i reeeeally don't wanna pursue sciences anymore. I lost interest in it completely. Most of my high school c
areer really, but before then, i was completely dependent on other people's decisions for me.
I'm glad i changed in that way.
Pic to sum up day:
oodles of Portal 2 with brandon!
PS: Hope you feel better =]
Nothing makes me happier than when you're happy yourself as well
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10:30 PM
Friday, April 29, 2011
Maybe Daily #5 (Totally missed 2 days on maybe daily, but i guess that's why it's maybe.)
Dear Future Chris,
You are very tired.
You unced hard.
Well you tried.
too lazy to type everything.
Maybe when i have some sleep and some water.
Tasty tasty water...
We done well.
So great when we all finished the 2nd dance and we celebrated.
Sooo worth the 7-8 months of that.
I'll miss it, to be honest.
Gave me something to do, regardless of how hard it was.
But now it's over.
At least i now get to chillax and stuffs.
I'll miss it.
I'll write a real one tomorrow.
I'm just too tired.
Just sooo tired.
Did i mention i was tired?
Well i am.
Day 5 of challenge
5.If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
I Wouldn't. At least not in my school years. During my 20's or 30's, i';ll probably help as many people out as possible. Change their lives, or try to.
Maybe i'll try harder.
Maybe i'll talk to more people.
Maybe i'll be the dancing queen.
But the key word is maybe.
Either way, my parents would be gone by now, and i'll be an orphan, and i'll be spending my last years in high school with only my bro and i, so i'll expect some challenges financially and stuff. Hopefully friends would help me there. Mm, i'll expect it to be really lonely too, with no grandma to greet me when i come home.
Just my bro and i.
I'll have no more aunts and uncles either, no extended family.
Just brother and cousins.
Kinda sad, really.
Who'll be my adult guidances?
Well, as for how i'll live differently, I'll probably be more independant and stuffs. And rely on my cousins and friends more.
Pic to sum up day:
Too tired to find one. But it was fanfuckingtastic.
PS: tired.
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10:25 PM
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Maybe Daily Blog #4
Dear Future Chris,
I WAS TOO LAZY TO DO IT YESTERDAY 'CAUSE YESTERDAY WAS LAZY.
So to catch up...
LAST TIME ON, CHRIS PUI'S LIFE...
12:00 PM
Except i was more frowny and hostile looking.
Also, that victory pose was me thinking : PRODUCTIVE DAY, AWAAAY
1:00 PM
3:00 PM
SUPER SAIYAN GOKU
5:00 PM
7:00 PM
9:00 PM
Guitar.
11:00 PM
12:00 AM
Mind turned to jelly.
(Yester)Day; SUCCESSFUL.
Day 4 of challenge:
4.Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
Settling.
I have no money.
I have no job.
I am underage.
I am a student.
I am not a prodigy.
I have distractions.
Many distractions.
In fact, this is a distraction right now.
...I. AM. IRONY MAN. MAKING IRONY OUT OF ALUMINUM CANS.
Pic to sum up yesterday:
PS: I. AM. IRON MAN. GETTING IRON OUT OF ALUMINUM CANS. DUUUN. DUUUN. DUNDUNDUN.
i'm done.
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5:09 PM
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Maybe Daily blog #3
Dear future Chris,
So i just realized i've posted past 12 am in the last 2 days in the a row.
...OOPS, MAH BAD.
Uhm, not a bad day, but not a spectacularly good day, so i'll call it neutral.
So i'll jst list minor details to fill up space.
bought roasted and salted corn from T&T. My life is complete.
Ate a lot of fattening stuff. My life is complete.
Chord changing getting slightly better but discouraged from learning barre chords and practicing air changing is pissing me off. My life is complete.
Must resist watching portal 2. Needs maor mineraft.
Also i realized if it wasnt for my art teacher, it would be nearly impossible to paint what im painting right now. Oh god, so hard, and so big, and so complex, and soooo little time.
What have i gotten myself into?
Day 3 of challenge:
When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
3. ...Yeah probably! But i would also have done a lot of things i've said i've done because i said i'd do them but i didn't do them so i said i'll do them next time, and i usually do do it next time or else i'll say i'll do it NEXT time and i usually either give up right there and afksuicide or do it to get it over with or just keep saying i'll do it when i won't do it but keep saying i will do.
Pic to sum up day:
ALL MINE, MUHAHA
PS: I'm good.
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8:48 PM
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Maybe Daily blog #2
Dear future Chris,
Fun day, no?
Quite eventful i should say.
Who knew you in the outfit would actually look pretty swag?
Except the tie (yay for brandon's uneven tying)
I hope we'll do just as go
od on the day. Those 7-8 months sure have gone past fast.
I only regret not taking advantage of the bacon event at Denny's.
Though who knew vanilla ice cream, bacon and maple syrup would taste good?
PROPS TO WHOEVER CAME UP WITH THAT.
Also awaiting for an impending heart attack. Should not have put butter on popcorn. it tasted like a butter flavoured fruit gusher >.>
Though i think he should not have been that aggressive to her, clearly she was showing signs of distaste. i mean
really now...
As for day 2 of challenge:
2. I think never trying, 'cause that's what i always do. Failing does feel bad, but its the effort that counts. Should really ju
st learn to jump head first and, then jump straight out if it isnt working right.
My excuse to write daily: in case i get Alzheimer.
Dear Future Chris,
Today is good friday, and while it may be good for other people, it has been terrible for me.
Maybe terrible isn't the right word. more like UNEVENTFUL
All i did was literally play guitar once i woke up, go on the maaaany random boredom sites i have...and eat...and computer...and guitar...and computer...holy god.
I am just not feeling peppy at all today.
On the bright side, It's been a little over a week an
niversary since i got my guitar, and i'm already learning songs. I can remember so clearly struggling the first day i was trying to learn my first chord and struggling on it simply because my fingers were like old men, unable to arc and bend to avoid touching other strings. Now they're like...young acrobats, all flexible and hot-looking! (acrobats are hot, right?)
Songs i know: knockin on heaven's door by Bob Dylan/Red Hot Chili Peppers
Time of your life by Green Day
Fun fun! Needa work on my chord changing speed though, so it's not like some relapse/stuttering version of songs, hurhur.
Tomorrow's bound to be more eventful, since the dress rehersal's at 10 am (...really now?) to noon and i'm going out with the vals group at 6 again. Rob's freakin' excited haha. Hope she likes the gift *crosses fingers* Though her boyfriend already gave her a hogwarts letter, so Rob got foiled once again by him. loool so bad.
And my brother keeps saying not to go to Ryerson. Sorry, bro, if no other schools accept me, that's where i'm going.
DEAL.
WITH.
IT.
Stop making decisions for me.
Also, if i'm gonna keep this going, might as well keep myself entertained.
This challenge is all about you: your values, your beliefs, your true ess
ence. Answer the questions thoughtfully and truthfully in order to gain a greater understanding of who you really are.
1.How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are? 2.Which is worse, failing or never trying?3.When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done? 4.Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing? 5.If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently? 6.To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken? 7.Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things? 8.If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be? 9.Would you break the law to save a loved one? 10.What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back? 11.Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? 12.Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton? 13.Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?14.Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you? 15.Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones? 16.Has your greatest fear ever come true? 17.Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now? 18.What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special? 19.At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive? 20.Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil? 21.If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?22.Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing? 23.Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before? 24.If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today? 25.Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years t
o become extremely attractive or famous? 26.What is the difference between being alive and truly living? 27.When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right? 28.If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake? 29.What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge
you? 30.Have you learned more about yourself by answering these questions the past 30 days?
Yeah, everything else was like "PICTURE CHALLENGE
" so i was like "CHALLENGE NOT ACCEPTED" cause i'm not camhoe enough to do so.
So...
1. I'll be 21. Legal enough for everything, young enough to still be swag. But i would always be swag no matter age, right? Right..? ...hello...? =[
Pic to sum up my day:
Sad day. Or uneventful day. Either or works.
Ps: Siiigh.
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6:18 PM
Friday, April 15, 2011
OH HARRO ,SELF FROM 2 YEARS AGO.
been awhile!
A lot of things have, past chris.
Here are a few examples:
-MY HAIR IS FLAT, OH EFFING BABY IN A GOLDEN DIAPER, INCASED IN DIAMOND THAT'S BURIED DEEP INTO THE MOON.
- I quit AR. *solemn and silent*
-I r guitar player.
-I suck at said guitar.
-I play der RO again. True story.
-My estrogen levels have increased tenfold, YAAAAAAAY
-My baby voice have gotten better. Thank you, girl who trained me! =]
-I r about to graduate. I am pleased.
-I have lots of homework and i procrastinate. I am displeased.
-I am asian still. QUEHUBLE, NEGRO.
-I am more social. NOT GOOD ENOUGH, NEED BE MORE.
-I am now suave, sexy, and expelling copious amounts swag from me.
-The above may or may not be exagerrated.
-I would like to believe it is not.
-However it may as well be.
-I am now sad.
-WHY CANNOT I NOT HAVE SWAG? WILLING TO TRADE SWAG FOR ANYTHING.
(Like my body ;D Oh i'm sorry! my insurance does not cover your mind exploding just now.)
K BYE.
In summary of the last 2 years:
I be rockin' and stalkin'
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11:05 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
HAIL.
As you may or may not know, i love to read. Especially if there’s a reward for doing it. And that’s the exact reason why i chose to “compete” to obtain the best AR points. Unfortunately, due to several events that happened this year, I couldn’t do it. Sure there’s time, but unless I can slow down time or stop it completely (which by then I would use that ability in a more…less appropriate way), I don’t have the time or the organization skills to balance speed reading with my academics. So, I respectfully forfeit my effort(* insert Arnold Schesomething voice* but I’ll be back) to both preserve material for next years attempt, and to also save myself from wasting my time. I only regret losing Les Miserables and The Stand this year in terms of points. Oh well, there will be other ones out there like them. And like all respectful men out there, I shall reminisce about my experiences in a narrative. With an…artistic license…to exaggerate a bit ,of course. Too lazy to read over, so:
WARNING WARNING BAD GRAMMAR WITH THE ADDITION OF POTENTIAL MISSPELLINGS ALERT. THIS IS NOT A DRILL. THIS IS NOT A DRILL.
The first 2 weeks of high school passed like a screamer video. It scared you at first, but the more you look back at it, the less frightening and it seemed. Of course, being the passive guy, I didn’t really make too many new friends. But why am I telling you about that? What is this, my life story? Anyways, I sorta knew what this so-called “AR” was, but I pretty much ignored it for awhile. Even the AR explanation session by the librarian failed to attract my attention.
As I don’t remember what he said at that meeting, I shall write something that I believe to accurate sum up what he said.
“Books, books, books!! CHILDREN, KIDS, TEENS: BOOKS are what keeps the world turning around and around and around! You see, without books, you won’t be here right now. Be honest know, how many of you learned how to make SWEET, LOVELY love from the Family Life textBOOK?? I sure did! I mean without it, I would have been like: ‘TWO holes? TWO? Should I like….flip a coin or something? Should I ask her? No, that would make me look like a virgin. Which hole…which hole…Top or bottom...top or bottom...seriously…TWO HOLES?WHY IS THE FEMALE ANATOMY SO DIFFICULT?!’. How do you think your mom and dad learned it? Your mom’s mom or your dad’s dad?? Demonstrations? NUH UH GURL-FRIEND! So, what’s AR you ask? What a RI-DI-CU-LOUS question! You see this book with this sticker? THAT’S AR! It’s logic. Small books, small points. Big books, big points. Then there are books like Little Women. I feel sory whoever fell into THAT trap! If you’re an overachiever(and who isn’t?) you can go up and beyond and go on the…TOP 10 LIST! FIRST PALCE GETS THE…..PUUUURPLE IIIIIIIIPOD….shuffle! Why purple? Because Jaguars are, and we ARE Jaguars. Watch….RAWR IMA EAT YOU! You see? That concludes this meeting. I am now open for questions.”
Yes, that’s how it went. Anyways, I already had a ipod, and it was working fine. Besides, who wants a shuffle? So time passed. I passed time at home with games and TV, like all qualified couch potatoes do. One month, one and half…and I decided I held of AR for long enough. Now I can’t really explain which drew me to the Stephen King shelf. His reputation? Fate? Or was it because the last name ‘King’ was so FRICKEN awesome? Who knows. I just know that the first book I read by him, Needful Things ,changed the way I saw books forever (okay, so I first read time him during the summer of 07/08 and the first book I read by him was actually Dark Half but Needful Things was one of my fave =[)
And so I read. Day after day, week after week, haunting images of murder, gore, mutilated body parts, and above all, children being brutally massacred and eaten by humans and/or demons or some sort (I <3>th. I was still about 150 points behind the 1st place (which was, Fatima coincidently). As time went on, my trusty friend Stephen King never failed me make me ‘wow’ or ‘ohh’ or ‘ahh’ or ‘OH GOD HIS HEAD! HIS DAMN HEAD!’ Sure I read other books, but they were always less interesting. Eventually, the end of the year came. And that meant assignments and gayness galore. But still, I trudged on, usually reading until 1 in the morning or something. At this point, Fatima, this grade 11 guy and I were battling for 1st. Unfortunately, Fatima dropped out of this furious (but rather pointless) battle for glory. I reached 300 points. 350. 380. And eventually, that grade 11 guy dropped out too. I was, as they say, flying solo.
The only enemy here was my conscious, telling me I can’t do it anymore. But I continued reading relentlessly. It was the week before exams. I had on more book in my hand that I dared to read last minute. The Shining. Page after godamn page I flipped in the seemingly endless book, but I finished it. I scored perfect on the test (to my surprise since I kinda rushed it), which brought my final score to….437-points-some odd number. A SCHOOL RECORD! As AR awards day came, I had the glory of hearning my name on the announcements (no seriously, that’s a first), had the glory of hearing about my heroic efforts in AR, and hearing how I got the record and how my name will be on the plaque of nerdiness for all eternity. Needless to say I picked the Shuffle as my prize (with great regret as the Tit and Ass (honestly, WHAT a name) looked amazing) and shared my glory with my fellow classmates and friends. I think my picture was on the school website at one point but I never checked. Anywas, exams came and went and summer was here. I pretty much lost my shuffle a few days later (its found now. Too lazy to recharge) and I was getting pumped up already for next years attempt at AR.
Then the horror came. As I had English 2nd semester, I watched as some grade 11 (WHY IS IT ALWAYS A GRADE 11?) soared through the points and landed a rather epic 500.8 points. That son of a motherkisser broke my record. He shattered my glory. He took away all I was proud for. That meanie.
Since I think I took more than enough page room, i’ll stop. FOR NOW, MU HA. HA. Really, I think I over typed for my grade 9 experience for AR. There’s still grade 10...if i ever feel like expressing my inner feelings once again.
No seriously, what an ass for beating my record. What. an. ass.
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1:16 PM
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